Between and Betwixt
When it came time to sit down and write this blog post, I was feeling more than a little blocked. What message have I received? What message would I like to share?
I spend a lot of time in meditation and contemplation. I pay attention to my dreams, trying to glean whatever meaning I can from them. I spend time on shamanic journeys, striving to align my inner and outer worlds with the larger forces of the Universe.
My spiritual world has been quiet of late. I've got a lot on my plate moving forward: a teenager that needs a lot of chauffering; markets and festivals are staring to open back up; I've a convention next weekend to prep for; I am at the tipping point of my new Oracle deck with a vision of how I can enhance my current art work and go deeper.
I'm in a place where I want to spend significant amounts of time immersing myself in stories and myths because I want to go deeper with my "Bloom Where You're Planted" Oracle deck. I know I can make the deck more meaningful than I originally envisioned. I want to do more.
With so much going on, why has my spiritual life felt so quiet and calm. Shouldn't I be receiving signs or visions that I am on the right path? Or indications if I'm veering off in the wrong direction?
Should I be receiving a message? Am I missing anything important?
I sat down yesterday and did a guided meditation, searching for something I may have been missing. Is there something that I need to know?
The vision I got back was beautifully clear. "Just keep going". I'm on the right path. I know I shouldn't need or crave constant reassurance, but I'm human. I can be plagued with self doubt and insecurities.
I started thinking that the quiet was too quiet, but really stillness and peace can be their own reward. I'm busy, yes. I have a lot of balls in the air and a lot of plans and ideas, but busyness doesn't have to be a bad thing as long as I can find the balance and the purpose in my activity.
Children need to be nurtured and cared for.
Paid work must be tended to.
Creativity needs space and time.
I am checking off my boxes and staying on track. Epiphanies and spiritual revelations are wonderful but we can't expect them to happen every day.
Instead, I am learning to enjoy the quiet moments; to relish the peace and stillness and the wonderful everdayness; to savor life and living and loving.
I don't need that message from the Universe to remind to live (although it's kind of nice when it happens).